Monday, February 11, 2008

Still Spring Dreaming



As I write this, the wind howls outside my window, and soon the crows will be calling to each other across a frozen landscape. But a sweet pink primrose lifts me from my winter sleep.


And it is a sort of sleep, this half-life I live from Christmas till the first bulb breaks through the just-warming ground. Do you ever feel that way? As though you are walking like a ghost through another's dream, not really here at all?


I know I am wasting a quarter of my life waiting for spring, but I feel as though I need it, as the bird needs the air. I need to feel the sun on my back, and the warm breeze caressing my cheek. I need to smell the earth, and to attend her labor as she bears fruit.


I need to see the promise of life anew.





And yes, I probably need to tweak my meds. :)



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I'm currently using the picture above as my computer wallpaper, and it cheers me up no end. If any of you would like to use it as well, feel free.






























30 comments:

  1. How eloquently you described exactly how I feel :-)

    I think my Hubby would say the most common phrase out of my mouth right now is "When it is warmer....". It seems like life is on hold...

    ((hugs)) Rosie

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  2. Hello Mary
    Your "Primel"-Flowers has a marvelous spring color...
    in Germany thinks here one the fact that spring already held introduction...
    remains nevertheless the winter surely still in its hiding place and looks now and then out...
    Take care
    Barbara

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  3. What a lovely picture, Mary.
    I, too, am looking forward to warmer days...as you might know, I do, however, love the wintertime, too. As I have mentioned, tho...I live where there's not all that much snow, nor cold. It is dry and windy here and I never want to go out of my house during this time. I love building the fires and reading, baking, cleaning....once spring hits, I sometimes almost forget to come back indoors! I take the trash out in the mornings and have been known to not come in until dinner time (hunger drives me in, I suppose).
    Your spring will be here before you know it....
    Hugs, bj

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  4. Oh, and I almost forgot. Be sure to stop by my place this morning and see MY interpetation of spring...some lovely flowers my daughter gave me.....

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  5. I always need a good bright dose of primroses too this time of year. Did you know that even when they die back a bit you can plant them in a shady spot outside and they will come back and flower in the summer? I keep telling myself all I need to do is get through February and March brings spring.....18 days and counting:>)

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  6. It does seem that life is on hold; waiting for Spring. Nothing like the birds singing and the sun on your back. Trees blooming and the bulbs sprouting to get me in a better mood. Have a good one, Janie

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  7. I really don't feel we had a winter...I missed the Colorado snow...now its just WA rain.......

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  8. I think you should probably just move to southern California. Spring ain't coming anytime soon in my world.

    Love the flowers!

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  9. Ugh! I am with you Mary. Very tired of winter.

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  10. I'm in NH and I am in need of spring big time this year. It's been a hard winter for us. I can't wait to wear sandals and see green!

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  11. Your longing for spring is very much in tune with how I'm feeling too. Little purchases of flowers during winter help me tremendously as I wait and dream of spring...your pink primroses are so lovely, Mary. Happy week ((HUGS))

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  12. I love your pretty pink primula, Mary! It's that time of year ... the snow isn't pretty and fluffy anymore. Everything is frozen solid and brown and dirty. I'm constantly dreaming of spring right now! ~ hugs, Lynda xo

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  13. Dear Mary: oooh, I have just borrowed your picture for my background~ it is lovely! Thank you so much for sharing!

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  14. I had never thought of it that way, but life does slow way down for me during the winter months right along with my metabolism. I'll have to consider whether it really is something that I "need."

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  15. Im sorry you feel this way. I have never,but it is because I have never had a chance to live where there is true winter. My heart desires it so much, but maybe I wouldn't like it. I guess it is hard to be content. I just hate it here where one day it is 40 and the next 80 . It will keep you sick and the poor flowers nver know what to do.
    Have a blessed Monday,Brenda

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  16. I just love primroses. I think are about the most cheerful flowers around. And yes, they are perennials in my (and your) climates.

    Janet

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  17. Sending sunshine your way Mary. I know how you feel.
    The primrose picture is lovely.
    Hugs,
    Donna

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  18. Good Morning Mary!
    :) I agree with Rosie, you described the winter blah's perfectly! I love your primrose.. just beautiful.. I might have to go out and get one to bring some spring to me!
    Have a fabulous day!
    :) Abbie

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  19. Hello Mary, winter is hard for us, isn't it? It's hard to keep my sanity when I can't garden and I have to try hard to fight the demons in my head. I won today, I had a crappy morning, then I talked back to my bad thoughts and they all went away. I told them to go to .... or stay out in the cold and get some frost bite. Lots of it.

    God is good. Have a great day Mary, God bless..

    Jeannie

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  20. Good afternoon Mary! They are telling us it is the coldest day here on LI! I am already in my flannels afetr coming home frmo work..I just want to hunker down! Thanks for looking for spring all over and sharing, I'm not sure I can find it! Also, thanks for the good wishes for my son! You're a sweetie!
    :0)
    Tara

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  21. Sigh, I do an annual countdown until Spring each year as well instead of searching out the beauty of January, February, and March. Hmmm, THAT should have been one of my New Year Resolutions! Devonia

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  22. Such pretty flowers, and a smile at the end, too! I must say I like this time of year (not the weather!) but the chance to catch up between Christmas and the garden season. Thanks for sharing your beautiful photo.

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  23. I grew up in Michigan and lived in Upstate NY for 10 years too. Then I moved to Florida....there is really no seasonal change there. I have since moved to NC and we have 4 seasons here. I think the body needs the four seasons. Winter is a great time to rest, recharge, reflect....
    Hugs,
    Penny

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  24. How perfectly said Mary. I am with you...sleep walking in wait of Spring. We've been enjoying some very warm temps the last two days so I cannot complain. It's just that I know it won't last!

    Hugs,
    Dena

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  25. ...Oh that is so pretty! I just had to stop and pause a moment to stare at the beautiful flower...what a lift for the spirit that is! :o)

    ...It's comforting to know that I am not the only one feeling as if they are living life in slow motion during this time of the year. We have a pair of mating geese on our pond and that is always a sure sign that Spring is on her way! :o)

    ...Thanks for the lift!

    ...Blessings... :o)

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  26. I just found your blog! I will definitely be a return reader! You had me with the forest ranger or supermodel comment!!!

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  27. Mary sweetie, I have just finished putting up a new post that I think you will really like! Have a lovely day!
    Amanda (aka Cottage Contessa)

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  28. Lol re adjusting you meds! Just found your blog. Looks lovely. I have just started blogging after reading them for a few months.

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  29. Lovely post. Until the internet, I never knew others felt the way I did about these gray, cold days in winter.
    I love your primrose photo. My screen just changed to a photo of a lush, rich, purple Mexican bush sage from last summer. You can almost hear the bees buzzing.

    I enjoy your blog.

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  30. You are amazing dear Mary...you write so eloquently, so lyrically and your photos are just glorious. They truly did make me smile. Thank you so much.
    Your box is ready to go believe it or not. I hope to be out and about by Thursday! Will mail it then.
    Thank you for always providing us with such beauty...

    Love,
    Sue

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